Every day, every moment you are on my mind

Days are busy but still find time to think of you

Why can’t I get you out of my mind?

Why do I want to talk to you every moment of my day?

Why? Why? Why?

I know i’m just dreaming

I know it’s a fantasy

You and Me will never be We 

Dream, Dream, Dream

that is all I can do…

Hoping that one day you will see

the beauty in me,

before it’s too late

Lately, I’ve had only one thing in my mind and it’s this guy. Have you ever met someone that you think to yourself like “he/she is everything I want in a guy/girl”. Have you? Well I met someone and everything time I think it can’t get better, it does. I think all the time what if I told him what I felt but then I remember the times I’ve told someone and how bad it went. Plus he isn’t just anybody, yea with other guys it totally sucked but I can’t imagine losing him as a friend. I think about telling him but then I put my guard up and back off. My image of us is like Elphaba and Fiyero in Wicked; the song that comes to mind is “I’m not that girl”. Everytime i’m not what they are looking for and just see me as a friend. I’m so torn inside because as I try to forget him and forget this feeling, so many things remind me of him or something he would like. What do you think I should do? I need some advice on how to handle this situation…do I wait it out/ ask him/ tell him/ etc/etc. So many routes to take but many will lead to an unwanted path.

Wish life was like a movie…I watch so many romantic films that I dream about what I wish would happen. Such as he would grab me out of know where and kiss me to show me what he feels for me. Or like does something to show me what he feels for me like dedicates a song or something in that field. But dreams are dreams and not what reality actually is. 

This entry was a bit everywhere and I have no Idea what to think but it helps to get my thoughts out there.

Mili